When all you know is love and chaos, everything feels wrong.

You’re sick to your stomach again.

Your eyes feel heavy.

Your heart beats so fast and hard, you swear you can see it wanting to hop right out of your chest.

You hold your breath, trying to slow things down, trying to find control….

But you don’t have control. You have chaos.

And when things do finally slow down, when the sun comes out, and the heaviness in your chest lightens, and your breath is no longer labored….. you crave the chaos once more.

Is it you or are you it?